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muftiehtesham. Random selfie pt.2.
In the early 2000's, when travelling from Lahore t

Random selfie pt.2. In the early 2000's, when travelling from Lahore to Pakpattan or Pakpattan to Lahore after sunset, one would find their way lined with small shops adorned with tubelights of every colour imaginable, green and yellow and purple, and if one were a little child prone to falling sleep, these lights would soon blur, one into the other, so that it would seem as if the world was being painted by the movement of one's car. But then came the rise of lightsavers and the way was now filled with sanitized, clinical blue-white, which was as practical as it was touted to be but dreams and hopes aren't practical and many a dreams and hopes were punctured by the practical, depressing, sanitized, blue white light of lightsaver bulbs. A few days ago, travelling from Lahore to Pakpattan or vice versa(too difficult and useless to remember), I see bamboo posts outside shops entwined with lights; red and blue and gold. Is this the return of hope? I dare not hope. But the world is being painted again and it's beautiful. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #hope #return #writersofinstagram #blog #explore #selfie #Pakistan #Lahore

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muftiehtesham. At 5:10 a.m., just as I have achieved partial success in convincing my

At 5:10 a.m., just as I have achieved partial success in convincing myself to sleep so that I can get to the appointment I have set up with a friend, I feel as if I have just woken up. There remains no hint of the sleep that I had begged for. In the 9th century and sometimes around it, the people of Brittania often hid in churches when they heard of Viking hordes coming their way, but it wouldn't help. Resistance was futile. Similarly, though I hide under my coverlet, it is in vain. My mind has decided that I am to be in one of those moods; deleting all the contacts, pictures, messages e.t.c. that I have just kept for sentimental reasons. A part of my mind thinks about how this energy is a testament to the bitterness of my soul, for acts that are generally considered "good", tire me so that I go to sleep at time but acts of anger, revenge and all their ilk? Those I can do without tiring. I wonder if the bitterness will ever go away, for it has no reason and it has been here forever. . . . . . . . . . . #noir #writersofinstagram #writersofig #bnw #blackandwhite

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muftiehtesham. Scrolling down my gallery, I found this selfie, which I don't even rem

Scrolling down my gallery, I found this selfie, which I don't even remember taking. Funny coincidence because I was thinking of things like this. By things, I mean emotions, people, memories, moments, the usual stuff. When someone writes a story, they often write filler chapters; chapters that do not necessarily further the plot but explain random information about the world(/s) in which the protagonist of the story resides. Just as often, these chapters are cut out of the final draft by the editor because they find them useless to the plot, this results in character behaviour that sometimes seems perplexing because a lot of times, those filler chapters serve to bridge the gap between the character before and the character now. The same applies to our lives, a lot of the above-mentioned things are thought to be filler chapters and scraped, but later on we are left to wonder why those people, things, memories e.t.c, those "lost" chapters still have such a major effect in our character now and if getting those chapters back would help us make more sense of our lives. . . . . . . . . . . . . #accidentalselfie #thoughts #explore

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muftiehtesham. A secret for a secret.
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A secret for a secret. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #moodgram #feelz #vibes #aesthetic #surrealistart #sunray #lahore #pakistan #vscopakistan

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muftiehtesham. Haylo frandz
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#tea #moodgram

Haylo frandz . . . . . . . #tea #moodgram

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muftiehtesham. Looking left because Zealeft.
#kashmir #tb

Looking left because Zealeft. #kashmir #tb

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muftiehtesham. Of Paindus and battiyan(lights); an eternal love story.

Of Paindus and battiyan(lights); an eternal love story.

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muftiehtesham. One of the few objective Truths.
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One of the few objective Truths. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #subtitles #aesthetic #cinematic #vscopakistan #igpakistan #lahore #bahriatown #moviesque #stills

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muftiehtesham. \"The First Supper\"
Caption and picture copied from @waleedhumayon's.
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"The First Supper" Caption and picture copied from @waleedhumayon 's. Picture taken by @harrisishtiaqq . . . . . . . . . . . #renaissance #painting #fairylights #aesthetic

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muftiehtesham. Aged 4, I stand outside our place, crying my heart out because my cous

Aged 4, I stand outside our place, crying my heart out because my cousins are leaving. This is the norm for the summer months in Pakpattan for the past and next few years until I turn 9. Guests(relatives mostly) come and leave. Their stay contains enough happiness for me that I think the duration of their stay was a month or more, although in actuality it must have been a week. And everytime they leave, I protest, with words and with my tears but it doesn't help. Time doesn't stop because of your words or your tears. Eventually, I learn to cheat this reality. Time, as a whole, can not be stopped but people, objects and moments can be frozen in time. And then I start doing that whenever someone/ something leaves. I freeze them in that moment and then carry that moment with me. Sometimes those who have left come back, the moment unfreezing so naturally that it feels as if they never left. And sometimes they can't come back, because they exist beyond the veil now or because of physical restrictions or the circumstances are such and in those cases, those frozen moments serve as a hope, albeit dim right now, of a future when they will be unfrozen. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #rickshaw #rickshawmodel #8bit #eastern #east #explore #miniaturemodel #writersofig #leaving #time #moments

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muftiehtesham. I'll be very honest.
I love gigantic mosques from an architectural poi

I'll be very honest. I love gigantic mosques from an architectural point of view because the acoustics, the mosaics and then the scale itself, that's worth appreciating, however whenever I have prayed in such mosques, I have felt incredibly small, as if the voice of my heart is extremely weak, so weak that it could barely escape this humongous bird cage of the spirit, much less reach God. I have felt much more at ease praying in open prayer grounds or small mosques. . . . . . . . . . . #badshahimosque #badshahimasjid #sunset #vga #8bit #8bitart #aesthetic #mosque #vscopakistan #lahore #igpakistan #explore #masjid #prayers #colourful #orange #minarets #east #videogames #aesthetic

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muftiehtesham. I have always loved watching people play games. (I am not talking abou

I have always loved watching people play games. (I am not talking about football and cricket e.t.c when I say games, I mean games like Age of Empires, Deltaforce e.t.c. or if I were being a pedant, I would say I meant videogames.) When I was 3, I would watch my father and my sisters play games on our Sega, later on just watching my father and cousins and friends play whatever games on whichever console was fun. (There was a channel called Now as well which showed people playing Doom or something like that). I think it's because the way each person plays a game is unique and it tells you a lot about the person because even if a person just follows the way the last person played the game, you understand that they are like that, all about taking the well trodden road. After I started thinking that, I started to see that for some people, life is as much a simulations as The Sims and after that, even though I know that it's going to hurt me, I have allowed some people to play games with me because guessing something will happen and having it proven right is just so much fun. There's this shayr which talks about how the death of passion is knowing what is at the end of the road of passion. I disagree. Passion is a drug, it tells you to actively seek destruction and despair because it's when we are destroyed and in despair that we have the most passion. I believe Faiz's shayr "Aa phir mujhay chour kar janay kay liyay aa" is more in line with what I believe, although my interpretation of it is not the one Faiz Sahab probably imagined. . . . . . . #mountains #travel #8bitart #videogames #aesthetic

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muftiehtesham. The Modern World; covered by numerous deserts of Ego, it thirsts for t

The Modern World; covered by numerous deserts of Ego, it thirsts for the Waters of Unity. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #vga #80s #retro #deserts #travel #videogames #igpakistan #clouds #16bit #arcade #ego #8bit #explore #vaporwave #animated

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muftiehtesham. The ones who left you, why did they get to decide how you would be? Wh

The ones who left you, why did they get to decide how you would be? Why didn't the people who stayed, numerically greater than the ones who had left, get to decide how you would deal with them? Why are they the ones who should not be trusted, the ones who, no matter what they do, are not given as much of a stake in your life as they deserve? This is just an extension of the inherent bias of the human mind, the one that makes me want to group people; by stereotypes or any other reductive method that makes it easier for me to say that just because x was like that, y will be like that too. But even though I understand how it works, why am I still not able to give each person the same chance of gaining my trust that I gave before? Or failing that, giving them a chance, however slim? . . . . . . . . . . #vga #8bitart #8bit #trees #videogames #writersofig #retro

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muftiehtesham. I have often observed that if my happiness lasts for a long duration,

I have often observed that if my happiness lasts for a long duration, I start thinking that I am dumb, or I am dumber than I usually am. At first, I thought this was just an isolated case, that I was an isolated case but as I talked to more people, I soon realized that this was a widespread problem, to think one was dumb if they were mostly happy. Why? I think it has something do with how we have been taught since we were children that "Pain makes you stronger" and shown continuously that the most brilliant minds amongst us suffered from one or the other form of sadness, which has made some of us think that perhaps sadness is the key to success. And thus we force ourselves to be sad at times, just because we think that if we are happy all the time, that makes us the side characters, the NPCs and if we are sad, that will make us the main character, because we feel, we know. . . . . . . . . . . . . #8bitart #8bit #retro

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muftiehtesham. The pain that has a name is easier to forget than the one that is not

The pain that has a name is easier to forget than the one that is not associated with one person, one thing but which, nevertheless, exists. How do you push away that which does not take a form, which may come packaged with another; like malware with proper software. . . . . . . . . . . #aesthetic #8bit #dove #travel #clouds #manyforms

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muftiehtesham. Baba and Ami, Kiwai, 1991.

Baba and Ami, Kiwai, 1991.

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